2022.08.15

It’s been too long since I’ve written anything, not that that means I’ve stopped thinking about you or how much I miss you; the opposite actually. I miss you so much that just staying still long enough to pour these thoughts into type hurts like you leaving all over again. I have big news though, and there’s still nobody else I want to share it with more than you. Jae and Chaelin got engaged this weekend, who would have thought those two crazy kids would have made it? I suppose it makes sense with all they’ve been through together. To think, we did that, we brought them together and now they’re going to be together forever. In a way we brought them the happiness that they can now share for an eternity. Anyway, they haven’t set a date or anything like that, not that you’d be able to make it, but I still don’t want to go with anybody else. With all that’s going on in the world, I may not actually go, depending on when and where they tie the knot. I feel like you would be so excited right now, you never were good at hiding your excitement, I guess you were too preoccupied hiding your pain; I feel like I’ve taken over doing that since you’ve left. Every day since actually. I still wear you around my neck, close to my heart, where you will forever be. I miss you so much it hurts. They say the pain fades in time, but I am starting to think that that’s just something people say to try and help. I don’t think the pain will ever stop